Hard Times

This past week has been an extremely difficult and challenging one for our family here.
And yesterday was just another kick when we were down.
We received a letter from our health insurance company saying that "because of the decline in the state's economy, they must reduce enrollment..." They are going to disenroll members.
The letter continues on that a bill was passed to where the Health Care Authority has the ability to set the criteria for the disenrollment.
We do not know if we are going to be cut, the members who will be will not know until August 1, which does not give them much time to set up new health insurance.
My first thought was the kids...they still have their check-ups and Lily is only 5 months old. She is going to need shots. My second thought was our doctor. He is a wonderful Christian doctor who lets us make our decisions ourselves and understands what we want and choose to do what we do. The third, what are we going to do?
Yesterday I was so overwhelmed with everything that has been going on this week that I couldn't focus. And last night I couldn't sleep. I was so frustrated, scared, angry, at a loss, that I couldn't breathe at one point.
And then something I read recently pushed all those thoughts and fears aside...

Pray...and let God worry

I felt peace, calm, reassurance, and I could breathe!

So today, my goal is to keep that phrase in my mind when I start to have fears.

PRAY...and let GOD worry